I like the youth film Blue Gate Crossing very much. Berlin Chen naively proposed to Guey Lun-mei that she should become his girlfriend. Guey immediately refused, and Chen didn't understand why.

"Why? I look nice. I can swim, and I play guitar too. What's wrong with me?"

"I-am-very-difficult-to-deal-with," uttered Guey, word by word.

We are all difficult to deal with when we are young. "I don't like this," and "I don't like that." When there is something we want to do, we immediately find it difficult and troublesome. If there is nothing we want to do, we also find it troublesome, we feel bored, knowing nowhere to go. We don't know what we will be up to in the future. We only know that there is nothing we want to become. As time goes by, "the beast" inside our body grows bigger and bigger, and we may think one day it will be out of control and burst out of ourselves.

We make a mistake, and then repent, and after a short while we repeat the same mistake again.

This is the nature of youth.

Guey supposed that her words would scare the boy away. To her surprise, upon hearing her words, instead of turned away, Chen became even more excited, as if he had found a comrade. With sparkling eyes, he said in a low, plain voice, "I am also difficult to deal with."

Someday when one day we find ourselves not difficult to deal with any more, we realised that we have grown up already.

By Ying-hing Ong

*Translation from Chinese article.